….damn it. Fucking hell, I can’t believe it has come to this….curse my bleeding heart….but damn it I don’t hate Caliborn either!

I can’t, I can’t

I don’t like him for “killing” Calliope. But I also can’t blame him for the things he did as English. He hasn’t reached that point yet. All he had in his life was chained in one room, on a dying planet, where he didn’t even have complete control of his own body. Where he will see the other side of the room as empty, but see things slightly move like chess pieces but never actually see them move. Where there is a literal other presence that just, takes over as he sleeps? Without his consent?

Hell I don’t even think he even met Cali’s dream-body either. He has just always, physically, been alone.

So, I can’t blame him, for enjoying having his own body for once.